Timeless You: The Mind-Body Connection

It’s been almost a week since I’ve been able to do any work and I’ve missed it. I’ve missed the feeling of accomplishment as I progress through each step and I’ve missed giving myself a moment to observe my reality from a peaceful perspective. Although I haven’t had much direct communication with the other participants, I’ve also missed receiving their replies to the messages I post. And, at the risk of sounding start-struck, I’ve missed my video messages from Deepak. I think all of this is a great testament to how well the course is going for me so far. It may not be filled with heavy reading material and demand weeks of coursework from me, but it is definitely challenging me to transform.

My yoga practice has helped me know a peaceful place of restful awareness. Most often, this awareness fills me during my practice; there is no time, there is no worry. Yoga is the tune to which my mind and body dance together, flowing and twisting, rising and resting to the hush of my breath.

Increasingly, I’ve been wondering how this union of mind and body transfers into my experience of daily life. Sometimes it does quiet the drama, but at other times it sends me into a deeper state of experience—I realize a further dimension of the interconnectedness of our stories and the questions I ask are more motivated by a desire to accept rather than to understand. I realize how all this sounds abstract and unclear but I think restful awareness is more a state of being than a rational approach, so trying to use logic to explain it won’t ever do it justice.

I find it more than a little ironic that I’m starting this part of the course at 3:16 am.

And there you have it. I’ve caught more colds in the last four months than I have in the last couple of years. With a new baby at home, I’ve not really had a restful sleep for almost two years. I try to get sleep during the day, but most of the time the temptation to do a little work for myself is enough to keep me awake until nightfall. But I still wake up at least five times a night, and sometimes as often as every twenty minutes. We co-sleep and I nurse my little one, so I haven’t been able to enjoy a night of restful sleep for quite some time. I’ve started to worry that my colds are coming with more frequency, but the little voice in my head is whispering that sleep is all the medicine my body needs. And yet, I’m up at 3am staring at a bright computer screen while surrounded by the thick blackness of night. Tonight is special though; I have company. My husband isn’t sleeping either. I suppose promotions can do that to people. Maybe a homemade chocolate waffle will put us to sleep…!

Course 4 complete. Final thoughts: I wanted so much more to come out of this course. I feel like I whizzed through it in minutes and learned little new. I did realize, on an awakened conscious level (because subconsciously, I’ve known all along) that sleep deprivation is causing my weakened immune system. But I don’t understand what the creators of this course were trying to accomplish. I genuinely could have learned so much more from reading a couple of chapters of any one of Deepak’s books. There was no opportunity for deep engagement with the material—no interaction with the other participants, so meaningful activities—and I’m left feeling confused about what it is I actually spent my time doing.

Maybe this is a case of not being a member of the intended audience: this course is hosted on a site called Grandparents.com. I’m in my mid-thirties. Could that be the source of the disconnect? Maybe. Especially since this course was about connecting with the body and the yoga exercises that we were guided through required minimal movement, better geared toward someone sampling the modality for the first time. I’ve just recently gotten passionate about hot yoga, so the simple movements in the videos weren’t really interesting to me. I’m actually surprised at how much I am connecting with this program considering that I don’t represent the target demographic. I’m hoping the final two courses will be more engaging and help me discover more about myself, something I’ve been able to do in the previous three courses.

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  1. Teta Bombardieri says:

    I believe when “the little voice in my head is whispering that sleep is all the medicine my body needs” !

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